It’s been a few weeks, but for awhile I felt like graduating from college was a stretch. Not that I couldn’t do it, but this whole semester has been a clusterfuck for my focus and motivation. I treated three of my classes as a joke (two were pass/fail) and I didn’t put in any effort. (They were repetitive subjects, and were just filling degree requirements). I slept a few hours each night, then napped about every day, much to my friends protest. It was amazing. HA! However, when it came down to it, I buckled down. I passed all my classes beyond even what I even thought I was capable of. I’m a college graduate (grammer and spelling doesn’t reflect that)!
Its strange. No summer internship, classes, or plan – I haven’t gone insane yet, somehow. Well, I haven’t really slept a full night in awhile. Every night I have a dream that I’ve forgotten something; an assignment, a project, meeting, or homework. Sweats, and waking in a panic doesn’t help either. I’ve checked my grades more now than when I was waiting for them to come in, just to make sure I’m done. To be honest, I’m not too worried about college ending. Friends come and go and I can’t express enough how thankful I am for all of them, but cell phones and the internet will keep us connected. My worry is – what’s next?
So many cities, so many agencies, too much idle time. One day is blending into the next and its relaxing in its own way. Hell, its 7am in Boulder and I’ve been watching Gordon Ramsay’s ‘Kitchen Nightmares’ for hours. My worrisome thoughts and fears of growing older are simmering down. Nothing in the present is clouding my mind, well, besides finding a job. I have time and I have focus when I need it, however for now, I just want to reflect on my past four years. Anyways I’m rambling, its late. Even though some friends have left, my memories, experiences, and life lessons will forever be with me. As much as I hate airports, I can see some future trips in the future, and I can’t wait to see where everyone ends up!
Let us not forget my parents, they are my heros. I couldn’t have made it this far without them. Aaaannnnddd there’s little Oreo – she made it to graduation and got to finally party with everyone. Everything from the past years all came together for the perfect graduation party and dinners. Lets keep moving forward. Goodnight(morning)